Another date, Z monstaa?

Now the joy has kind of subsided (actually for quite some time already) and I'm feeling sleepy. Freaking sleepy.

I think I had like, 10 dreams or something? It's quite bad, I keep having weird dreams about posting results. Once I dreamt that when I logged into the JAE website, I couldn't find the name of the collage I was posted to. So for 10 mins, I was busy searching the page for any indications that may hint which JC I'm going, but to no avail. It was quite a nightmare for me?
Then I dreamt that I got posted into Nanyang Poly. Not that it's bad, but I didn't put it in any of my 12 choices, and when I called up MOE, their answer was that I wasn't able to get into any of the 12 choices I've registered, so they've decided to put me randomly into one poly. Then I went crying to my mom, my mom told me to accept it. Wth!

It was very bad. I didn't have a good sleep last night. Or maybe I didn't sleep. The times when I lose my consciousness was the times when I'm dreaming. Then I woke up at 7 plus and decided not to sleep anymore. Yes, I panicked in front of the computer for 15 mins.

From what I know, there are currently less than 10 Xinmin peeps going to TJC. I wonder if that's a good thing or not, lol! But it's cool because Leonard Jolin and I are going together from Sengkang! :D It's waay cool :D I'm fairly excited for Monday actually, lol!

Another thing, I don't know if I want to join choir. A part of me wants to join choir quite badly, yet another part of me wants to try out something new. Damn. But in any case, I'll think about it really carefully for these few days, because I don't want to make a decision that I'll regret when I look back next time. That feeling is quite awful that I don't ever want to experience again.

And on a random note, I was thinking maybe I should get brainwashed or something. Or lose a part of my memory. That way, I won't have any prejudices, and to think I've been condemning prejudices in my Literature essays for 2 years, and have gotten a distinction for it! :O I deserve to be shot or something ok!

I'm going to miss so many people man. ): All the close friends are going to different places. It's quite scary, especially when I cannot imagine feeling awkward around them! Sigh, things are changing so quickly. Distances between people grow like who-knows-what. I know that feeling too well - no common topic, changed personalities, different leagues. Scary man. I really have to make an effort to maintain those precious friendships I've made in Xinmin man. :/

Can't Hold On - Melee
(For those who're appealing to their desired institutions, and myself. I love this song, it makes so much sense and really tugged at my heartstrings, almost made me cry ok.)



Someone cries and it washes the street with tears
But when they are mine, they collect in my head for years
Rain or shine, still I'm standing on all I said
'Cause it's in my soul, carry on when the feeling's dead

[Chorus]
But if you can't hold on
Let it go and come back in your heart
And if you can't hold on
Maybe it's not time for you
And if you can't hold on
On your very last try
I'll be there in the morning to pull you through

Someone dies late at night and I never know
And even if I did, so afraid of the face I'd show
I feel trapped and enslaved to this dark contrast
Need a feeling now, give me something that's going to last

[Chorus]

I want to be free
I want to be free
I want to be free
Yes, I want to be free
I want to be free
Yes, I want to be free
Oh, I want to be free
Yes, I want to be free

You say you want to be free
But you can't fool me
You say you want to be free
Oh, but you can't fool me
You say you want to be free
But you can't fool me
You say you want to be free
Oh, but you can't fool me

Oh, and if you can't hold on
You can't hold on (Can't hold on)
You can't hold on (Can't hold on)
I'll be there, I'll be there

Oh, and if you can't hold on
Let it go and come back in your heart
And if you can't hold on
Maybe it's not time for you
And if you can't hold on
On your very last try
I'll be there so you know that you're not alone