This is the 47th post.

I think the man UP THERE (like seriously waaaaaaaay up there) likes to play practical jokes on me. Big time. Or rather, he likes to play pranks on others as well.

In any case, I've gotten into Pre-U Seminar, like mega WTF. Sorry for the profanities because seriously, I'm superbly pissed off. It's like, a person like me who doesn't value such chances should not be given a chance. People who really wants to get in badly should be given a chance. I know of people who wants to go for Pre-U Seminar, but didn't manage to get in.

I don't even know what to say to them wth.

And then I was complaining to my big brother about it, and he told me to go for it (like even more WTF) and told me to ignore people if I find them undesirable. As in, I'm not being a meanie. But I don't want to get close to some people. Then he said it doesn't make sense to give up such a great opportunity because of those people. He's right. BUT THEN, I really don't know what to expect. From the people there, and the whole thing.

It's like reliving the whole "nightmare" from last year you know. I don't even think I can make it through this man.

And it doesn't help when you try to explain to some other people, they brush you off with sweeping statements. Maybe my tolerance level has dropped to a new low again, because of all those shitzxz going on in my life.

I just need someone who listens to me, and doesn't interrupt me with irresponsible and thoughtless statements. Is it that hard?

Okay, at least I have new and oh-so-gorgeous shoes to look forward to.

Seriously, I feel like throwing myself against the damned wall.